I
could have posted this a few days ago but I decided to wait. Last year
was one of the toughest years I've ever had. I was hospitalized 12 times
for mental health issues and twice for physical issues that were
related to my mental health issues. Total of 7 different hospitals. It a
whirlwind of bouncing in and out of the hospital and trying to keep
myself out of the hospital for as long as possible. I lost some really
close friends and almost lost my job. I've struggled financially all
year. I spoke to my parents for the first time in 2 1/2 years. Then cut
off communication with them again because it was just too much for me to
handle. I had 3 suicide attempts, 2 of which ended me up in the
hospital for multiple days and included very close calls. I made new
friends through my hospital stays and my involvement in different
things. I have made a little progress with school but not as much as was
originally planned. I got on disability on my first try. It was a long
and very hard year. I feel that a lot has changed since the beginning
of last year, some good and some bad. I'm learning to live with and
handle my mental illness. I'm learning how to advocate for myself. I'm
discovering who I am again and hoping to keep growing and learning every
day. I have dreams for life but could not imagine this is where I would
be right now.
This year I hope things will be different. I hope things will change and I will advocate for that as much as possible. I want to let other people kno they are not alone in their struggle. I want to make a difference. We will see what this new year brings.
This year I hope things will be different. I hope things will change and I will advocate for that as much as possible. I want to let other people kno they are not alone in their struggle. I want to make a difference. We will see what this new year brings.
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