Monday, August 3, 2020

Poems/Songs - Feb/Beg of March 2015

Song written on 2/1/2015

My plans never work out
My wishes never granted
My coins never meant much
When thrown for good luck
Why is God punishing me?
Why can't I get a break?
What did I do to deserve this?

How many times will my life fall apart?
How many days will I wake up and be dark?
How many ways can a person lose everything?
How many people will get up and leave?
How many will give up on me?
How many times?
How many times will my dreams be forced to change? 
God, how many times?

My heart is hurting
Full of despair
Crying and screaming
Is there anyone there?
Everyone tells me
Life if worth it
But I can't see it

How many times will my life fall apart?
How many days will I wake up and be dark?
How many ways can a person lose everything?
How many people will get up and leave?
How many will give up on me?
How many times?
How many times will my dreams be forced to change? 
God, how many times?

Life doesn't seem worth it
The pain too much to bear
But God is with me
He is always there

How many times will my life fall apart?
How many days will I wake up and be dark?
How many ways can a person lose everything?
How many people will get up and leave?
How many will give up on me?
How many times?
How many times will my dreams be forced to change? 
God, how many times?
Oh, God how many times? 

2/10/2015 Poem

Trapping in a corner
Wanting to die
Sits a little girl
Starting to cry

All have left her
In a world of pain
With no one to care
Or help with the strain

Trapped in a corner
Sits a little girl
Trapped in her mind
In her own little world

Wishing for peace
Love and care too
Wishing for others
To show her love too

Trapped in a corner
Wanting to die
Sits a big girl 
Ending her life

Peace has arrived
Love and care too
Peace in her death
And faith in heaven too

2/28/15 Song

Why keep trying?
When the pain won't subside?
Why keep lying?
And acting everything's alright?
Why keep hiding
The pain that's too much to bear?

When there's peace in Heaven
An end in dying
No need to hide the pain?
Nothing's broken
All's wide open
No more life to live
Why keep trying?
Why keep trying?

Why keep going
When all seems hopeless?
Why keep showing
When it seems endless?
Why keep knowing
That there's no end in sight?

When there's peace in Heaven
An end in dying
No need to hide the pain?
Nothing's broken
All's wide open
No more life to live
Why keep trying?

When the paint's to hard to bear
The future's all a scare
No one to show you care
No one to show you care

When there's peace in Heaven
An end in dying
No need to hide the pain?
Nothing's broken
All's wide open
No more life to live
Why keep trying?

Ooooo..... why keep trying?
Why keep trying?

3/1/2015 Poem

The tears won't come
The pain too deep
The scars don't fade
The end in sight

The pain never ending
The scars multiplying
The tears always hiding
There's peace in dying

That's how it feels
To be stuck in darkness
To not see the light
Or even the tunnel

The tears keep running
The scars keep showing
The pain keeps growing
Where's the end in sight?

The blood keeps running
The cuts keep burning
The scars keep growing
There's no end in sight

Death is freeing
Pain is ending
Tears are flowing
Scars are glowing

Death is freeing
The peace is starting
The freedom everlasting
The pain forever gone

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