Poems from Treatment #1

 I want to scream
I want to cry
But I'm afraid if I do
I will surely die

No one sees it

It's always hidden

Because I've been taught

That it's extremely forbidden

I can't release

It's trapped inside

I feel alone

In every stride

It's scary

It's bad

It'll mean

I'm just like my dad

Letting out 

All my fears

Will lead to nothing

Not even tears

Nothing will come

It's too deep

I can't fall apart

I can't even weep

I want only

To let it out

But inside

There is so much doubt

Maybe one day

I'll face my fears

I'm letting everything out

Of freeing my tears

I want to express

I want to let go

My scream inside

That I need to show

One day soon

Maybe I can

Let everything out

From which I have ran

I want to scream

I want to cry

Maybe some day

I'll be able to try