This is a poem I wrote after a conversation with my therapist at River Oaks:
I want to scream
I want to cry
And I'm afraid if I do
I will surely die
No one sees it.
It's always hidden.
Because I've been taught
That it's extremely forbidden
I can't release
It's trapped inside
I feel alone
In ever stride
It's scary
It's bad
It'll mean
I'm just like my dad
Letting out
All my fears
Will lead to nothing
Not even tears
Nothing will come
It's too deep
I can't fall apart
I can't even weep
I want only
To let it out
But inside
There is so much doubt
Maybe one day
I'll face my fears
Of letting everything out
Of freeing my tears
I want to express
I want to let go
My scream inside
That I need to show
One day soon
Maybe I can
Let everything out
From which I have ran
I want to scream
I want to cry
Maybe some day
I'll be able to try
This is an acrostic poem I wrote:
Giving up what wasn't mine
Undoing the chains that held me down
Illuminating the possibility of believing in myself
Leaving behind what I don't deserve
Turning around and being free
This is a poem that I wrote in response to a memory that came up:
I'm broken
I'm damaged
My life is really
Hard to manage
I'm damaged
I'm broken
Much of my life
Remains unspoken
You damaged my life
That can't be fixed
All the pieces of my mind
Are completely mixed
You took full
Advantage of me
You turned me into
Someone I didn't want to be
You stole my innocence
That I can't get back
It's left me
Completely out of whack
Because of you
I feel so alone
Isolated
With no one to phone
Maybe one day
I'll find a way out
Of the flashbacks, the nightmares
That give me so much doubt
You betrayed me
You destroyed me
You made me
Feel so lonely
Destroyed I am
Because of your behavior
My memories from childhood
I'm unable to savor
You hurt the child
Who knew no better
You took something from me
You became my debtor
You caused my pain
You caused my fear
It haunts me every day
Every month, every year
Maybe one day
You'll understand
And my heart may heal
My hurt may end
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